I resolve to come up with better titles in the new year

It’s the time of year again. Everyone takes a look back at the past year or decade and cringes hoping not to repeat the bad stuff in the coming year. We listen to the top 10 lists of whatever… celebrity meltdowns, memorable quotes (“you lie!”), songs (the good and the bad… miley cyrus & taylor swift need to get out of my head) and so on. Resolutions start to boil under the surface of our heads.Closer, more critical looks at our love handles and mama apron (tmi,i know – but dude, i had triplets and there’s a bit of skin that hangs down. ugh).

I used to resolve to make various resolutions and stick to them. Then I started to resolve to not make any damn resolutions because I was just going to break them a week later. Later I started to make secret resolutions, so if I failed, only I would know.

These are the things I am resolving to do in 2010:

1. Yell at my kids less. I know I should say “not yell at my kids” but there are 5 of them and sometimes you have to yell to be heard.
2. Take a picture every single day and upload it to Flickr. Once upon a time I participated in a 365days self portrait challenge. I failed miserably along with all of my friends who were doing it. This time around, I am not going to take pictures of myself every day, just a picture everyday.
3. Love myself a little more. I have self esteem issues. Don’t we all? Mine can get in the way of my happiness more than I would like it to. I’d love to be one of those people who doesn’t give a flying rat’s patootie if so-and-so from high school doesn’t add me to her Facebook friends because she doesn’t remember me. Yeah, I was shy in high school, if I had to do it over again, I’d take the “fuck if I care” route and just be myself a bit more instead of living in fear of everyone else and what they thought of me.
4. Finish projects I start. I did finish Emma’s fingerless gloves!! Woo! Next I want to make the babes some slippers with non-stick soles thanks to some puff paint. I haven’t found a pattern I like… but when I do, I promise not to knit them 3 sizes too big because that’s when I figure the kids will get them.
5. To let go of the anger/jealousy I feel when James is lounging around watching tv while I frantically clean the house. I should also try to let go of having a clean house. The triplets are proving they can make a mess of the entire living room in a blink of an eye.
6. Give myself a break. James’ mom has been coming over on Wednesdays. The first couple of weeks I took complete advantage of it and ran ff to the library for hours and hours of quiet time. Soon enough, I was leaving just to go grocery shopping and not spending any time at the library (free entertainment, yo). I need to get back in the library swing of things and allow myself a day of no kids.
7. Stop being all OCD about lists. Like when my mother in law takes up 2 lines of the grocery list with one item. Or my need to make this list to 10 because it feels odd to just let it end right here.
8. Stop talking to myself so damn much.
9. Stop being scared to run to the bathroom in the dark after watching hours upon hours of ghost hunting shows. (Dudes! Ghost Adventures on the Travel Channel is like Ghost Hunters on crack. These guys  try to get the ghosts to come up to them and harm them or some shit. Combine the two and I’d never leave the house!)
10. Watch less television.

So, what are your resolutions?

I’ll be ending the year moving closer to changing my life drastically. Tomorrow I should learn when my gastric by-pass surgery date is.

Here’s to a happier, healthier new year!

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